Now we are looking at the interaction between you developing yourself personally and professionally and the push back from those around you. The push back is because, very plainly speaking, you have pressed the edge of the social norm for the group you are currently in.

Why is it so hard, with all that we have and have access too, to find peace? I am a firm believer it is because we have lost sight of who we are as individuals and whose responsibility it is to find and maintain our individual peace.

If we avoid pain and potential injury we are also avoiding growth. We are avoiding valuable lessons that teach us about our boundaries and how to push past them. We also lose a chance to see what we are capable of.

The conversation of holistic training comes up a lot in conversation with clients and friends of mine. The concept that there is a way of training that directly correlates to “normal” daily activity more so than others training models is strange to me.

I was no longer the feeler of the emotions of the present, I was an observer.

I was so exhausted from unloading everything I had held on to for years that it removed my ability to spend any more energy on feeling. It was like I was watching myself sit in that chair. I stared into the forest for what felt like an eternity. Slowly drinking my coffee.

We slowly worked our way through the group, one by one each man took his shot at being the fastest. Each man gave it his all. Two of the guys in the group broke a few fingers trying to grip the heavy fabric the sandbag was made of. Several tripped trying to sprint backwards while dragging this monstrosity of a implement

Now we made a promise to the team, the ownership and I, that we would not breathe down the necks of our guys just as long as they were getting stuff done. We had salesmen come in late or leave early regularly.

They are dealing with a PR nightmare as well as blowback from the city.  Everyone is just trying to get in and get out. Upset customers, vendors and city officials are a daily occurrence. No salesman in their right mind would pick this company. It is a sure fire way to get your eyebrows taken off.

You have to take care of you first, focus on controlling your actions and habits and lead by example.

This wasn't something new, my grandfather was a no nonsense, never ask for directions, Frank Sinatra listening, “man’s man”. He was right, regardless of the outcome.

This could be stated a different way, Rich people buy based on value and Average people buy based on lowest price.

If I had a dollar for the amount of time I spent 400mg deep rolling through my workouts like a mad man sweating like I was running a marathon I would have a lot of dollars.

Now, what the hell am I writing about french presses for? The magic of Intentional Processes.

I struggled for several years pushing myself to be perfect at what I loved to do, to sink all my time, attention, emotions and bandwidth into it. Most of the time to just end up with frustration at the end result.

Journaling allows you to understand the decisions your making now based on past decisions in similar circumstances.

What do I mean by this? Well it only makes sense through silence. We have the ability to manipulate our world far beyond our comprehension.

Being surrounded by all of the quick versions of things its hard to stop sometimes and take pleasure in the process.

Once this started the spiral was going to follow, it usually started with something small like the coffee machine and escalated into life “attacking” them.

Standing firm on what want and need in your life is probably the most freeing thing you can do for your mind and soul, however it’s not easy because you will, without a doubt, shine light on things that you need to remove from your life.

This all lead to me learning the best lesson I have ever been taught. It has stuck with me, the feeling, the frustration and the embarrassment of it all.